2018… the year I got to know myself… on purpose

As the end of the year has been quickly approaching, I’m reflecting on what I could have done better this year.

In all honestly, even tho some things didn’t go as planned, and every day can seem like baby steps… one thing for certain is God definitely has had my back this whole year.

With the previous years knocking me on my butt, I chose to take a leap in Faith when I felt I had no one else to turn to. No one really to talk to. A feeling of being alone. Depressed. Broken.

I needed guidance, bad! When everything else wasn’t working for me.

In January, I chose to be baptized. I felt it was a great way to get a fresh start, a purging of my past, a do-over. A ‘clean’ slate.

I know that’s not the way to look at it, but I felt like I needed a way to clean my past and therapy can be expensive. Plus I refuse to go on anti-depressants when life is kicking me hard.

So, between my amazing church family, my studies of the Bible, understanding who Jesus is and REALLY know what He has done for me by being my Savior…

I feel like I have a better peace of mind, less anxiety, diligent thoughts and the struggles of life hasn’t detained me as harshly as the past (or rather, ALLOWING to detain me).

It has been a blessed year with new opportunities for work travel, new friendships, rekindling some old relationships, tho still working on the forgiving others part (I said baby steps) and I’m moving into a new year feeling stronger (mentally, physically and definitely spiritually). 💯

As far as travel, I went to Key West & LA (tho both were too short of a trips).

Small getaways are just as important as the bigger trips. My goal in 2019 is to travel more, even if that means 3-4 day weekends. Tho I am hoping that my career will take me on adventures I never thought were possible. ❤️

As far as work, I had an amazing opportunity to not only massage, but hang out with a pretty cool R&B/Pop artist (and his team) while he was on his East Coast tour!

Seeing the life on the road with an artist makes you see things differently. Plus it takes a lot of dedication, trust in your team, hard work and above all, faith in yourself. This dude’s got it all!

He is by far the most genuine, humbling, grateful and appreciative young artist I have ever met (well, I haven’t met many but just my over all experience was pretty awesome and made me understand the entertainment world a lot clearer).

As far as my health, I have had a clean bill of health just one month ago. Though I do need to exercise more, overall, everything came back good and I have a baseline after 6 years of not having health insurance. So that’s good. 👍🏽

Sadly my mom has been battling cancer all year. Cancer is a sad disease. One day the drs say there is no hope and the next day (even next minute) a true miracle happens and she feels great and out of the hospital for a few weeks. 😩

I know 2018 was a horrible year for my parents with my mom having this sickness. All I can do is continue to pray for her (and the other millions of people fighting cancer) and hope mankind finds a cure, soon. 🙏🏽

Overall, as you can read, my year wasn’t horrible (other than my mom being sick). Oh and the thousands of dollars in parts and labor I had to put into my Jeep aka Silverlining. 😪

I had some closure on some derailed relationships, I found God and I have an amazing career that is the stepping stone to my future.

I am grateful for all I have and who I have in my life. I recognize what has been working for me and areas I need to improve on.

I look forward to all that God has in store for me in 2019 (and beyond).

Leaving my life in Gods hands is what’s been working for me. He’s the only man I can rely on. I’m not kidding either… lol

He is AMAZING! He is my God!

In Jesus’ Name. Amen. Amen. Amen.

#2018 #2019 #transition #betterme #healthy #mentally #physically #spiritually #livingmybestlife

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